Crap they said about me

These are real things people said about me. So i figure out, might as well i document it down. Who knows 10-20 years down the line, the blog is still around, i might wanna do the "walk down memory lanes" kinda thing.

1. Crazy (pretty much everyone says that i am..u tell me then ay?)

2. Loud (dont need no one to tell me this, i know i am, sorry folks! But i am slowing down as age is catching up. Ha ha)

3. Nasty (these people know who they are)

4. Cool (i honestly hope this is a genuine compliment, cause if it is, gheez thanks!)

5. Good dancer (with all due respect, but i think these compliments come from a bad dancer, well i move a bit here and there, but who doesnt?)

6. Funny voice (i admit i have an annoying and funny voice..its not even funny!)

7. Very friendly (my sister always tell me to tone it down a bit)

8. Naughty (my closest friends keep nagging like i am 13..when im actually going 30!)

9. Stubborn (i get this a lot from a lot of people)

10. Tomboy (my papa and mommy actually find it weird if i wear a skirt)

11. Arrogant (lots of people actually come up to me and tell this to my face..HONEST!)

12. Confident (every interviewer said this to me, but only few actually followed-up..they lied perhaps?)

14. Smart (my current bosses always tell me this, and it kinda lift me up every time)

15. Cute (only Umpy says this to me..and he does it every time *smitten* he's my boyfriend, so its one of those things that a boyfriend does? Ha ha)

I didnt made those up, i just thought i'd share it with you. But if it creeps you out, i actually wonder why you even bother reading my blog the first place?

So that's pretty much how people look at me in person really. Nothing's fake about me, well maybe my attitude towards you, and that's if you're really getting on my nerves, and plus you're fake yourself!



magnificient

 

-lady-

Lady's bucket list

Since I am 13 going on 30, i figure out maybe its 'that' time to have my own bucket list, and since I'm turning 30 in a month or so, maybe I should list 30 things to do before i die. Well, its for fun, and at least it could help motivates me to strive harder. So let's see what i have in my crazy mind ay?

1. Sky diving

adrenaline rush

2. Bungee jumping

3. Learn how to swim (umpy promised to teach me)

4. Bring my parents to Haj

5. Buy my own property in the UK and Malaysia

6. Live and work in NYC

NYC baby

7. Test drive a Ferrari (no, i don't wanna own one!)

8. Witnessing a perfect sunset and sunrise

9. Buy my parents a property

10. Bring my parents on a shopping sphere

11. Marry my Umpy

12. Get on a rollercoaster (those really crazy ones)

13. Go to all seven wonders in the world

Machu Picchu

14. Be part of Celebrity Juice (LOL)

15. To go out and wear high heels the whole day (i don't wear high heels, so its a challenge if i do!)

16. To go on a shopping sphere at Topshop, and then its close to the public cause I'm doing my shopping..ALONE!

17. To sit beside the pilot in an Airbus A380's cockpit

18. Climb Mount Everest (should start with Kilimanjaro first u reckon?)

19. Learn how to play a guitar and a bass

20. Learn how to play drums

21. Donate to Charity (i know, but i am talking about 5 figures)

22. Splash my money on SIA's First Class (not them normal ones)

23. Have my own empire (could be anything from stalls, to shops perhaps companies)

24. Visit the fishing village at Cinque Terre,Liguria

 

gorgeous

25. Go roller-disco in 70s outfit

26. I want to try and memorized the whole al-Quran

27. Honeymoon on the space

28. A visit to Antartica

29. Backpacking around the world

30. To die peacefully as a good and obedient Muslim

That's a long list, and if I can just challenge myself to do all those, I'll be the happiest girl alive. I say "Get in there son!!!"

-lady-

Church visit

About a week ago, i went out with a friend. We were trying to kill some times because the restaurant that we were planning to go to will only opened in 30 minutes time. Few blocks away is a building that was used for concerts and stuff. But today, it was renovated and turn into a church. So i figure out, why not, cause i've never been in a church before. Well maybe once when i had to collect my graduation gown, but the church was transformed completely into a wardrobe full of graduation gowns, so that's different.

So we went in. We had a volunteer who works for the church showing us around. So i went into every possible room they have. Baptism room, wedding room and also the library. Its a new experience. Getting to know how does the church actually looks like, i know it sounds stupid (a church is a church), but its good to know. This friend of mine is an atheist. She told me that she doesnt believe in God, but wanted to believe in one, so she decided to go to church to find out.

So i asked her "why Christian, and why not Islam, like myself?" So she said she would like to know about Islam too, but the sad part is that, i dont even know how to explain it to her, in an attempt to make her understand why Islam is the best religion in the whole universe. It makes me think, how do we make people believe and understand that Islam is the best religion when as a Muslim, we dont even know how to tell them that. We make people believe that Islam is a terrorist religions, because of people like me, who failed miserably to explain to these non-Muslims that its just an ambush to make us Muslims look bad.

She even planned to go to the church again together one day, and i told her that i maybe look like i dont care, but i am a proud Muslim, that i was born a Muslim, and will die as a Muslim. Then i thought to myself "how many Muslims got lost along the way while trying to get into the right path, thinking that converting into another religion is the best option?" Its sad really to think that a Muslim actually convert into some other religions, believing it suits them better when they were born with the best religion in the whole universe.  

I am ashamed of myself, and to Him, Allah swt. The moment i step my feet into that church, every nanosecond beat of my heart knows that Islam is where i belong, and how i desperately wish she can see that too. Islam is beautiful. Its simple and yet so powerful. I pray that one day, Allah swt will guide me and her, so that i wont get carried away so far, and for a long time. I am a Muslim, and i practice them. Its just that sometimes, old habits never die. Everyday i pray that He will open my heart, and show me the way back to where i belong. InsyaAllah

شَرَعَ لَكُم مِّنَ الدِّينِ مَا وَصَّى بِهِ نُوحًا وَالَّذِي أَوْحَيْنَا إِلَيْكَ وَمَا وَصَّيْنَا بِهِ إِبْرَاهِيمَ وَمُوسَى وَعِيسَى أَنْ أَقِيمُوا الدِّينَ وَلَا تَتَفَرَّقُوا فِيهِ كَبُرَ عَلَى الْمُشْرِكِينَ مَا تَدْعُوهُمْ إِلَيْهِ اللَّهُ يَجْتَبِي إِلَيْهِ مَن يَشَاء وَيَهْدِي إِلَيْهِ مَن يُنِيبُ {13

(42:13) He has prescribed for you the religion which He enjoined upon Noah and which We revealed to you (O Muhammad), and which We enjoined upon Abraham and Moses and Jesus, commanding: “Establish this religion and do not split up regarding it.” What you are calling to is very hard upon those who associate others with Allah in His Divinity. Allah chooses for Himself whomsoever He pleases and guides to Himself whoever penitently turns to Him.

-lady-

mumford and sons

oh hello! dont remember the last time i blog. i know it has been sometimes, been busy. or perhaps, just pretending to be busy. it has been a month now since i am back to this west side of the world. nothing has changed. i am still alone, in case ure wondering. No, umpy is not back yet. Yes, i know it has been too long now. No, i dont know when will he be back. Yes, i will wait for him. There you go! Should be able to answer all questions aint it?

Just like mumfies's "i will wait for you" i supposed. i will wait for him, all those promises that he made, might me broken, but i am pretty sure there's a strong reason for it. people might not know, but i know him well. he will come back, its just a matter of time. I dont know how to swim, but there's not enough water under the bridge to make me drown, not yet. I am surviving i supposed.

I bought Babel two weeks ago, and i'm stuck with it until now. Keep destroying the shuffle button over and over again. For me, their materials are just sublime! Among the best album i've ever bought. The words are properly written. So meaningful that people forget to enjoy the music. I am positive that when they write their songs, its for everyone to enjoy and listen, and yet, there's still some of them out there who refuse to share it and destroy the meaning of music. Hands down, some songs are about Jesus indeed, but why are we fighting about it. Just enjoy the music, and stick to your beliefs. In my opinion, the album itself is about love. The love that we have for God, the love that we have for our loved ones.

Believe it or not, their album actually gives me hope. Its beautifully written. I feel like umpy is right beside me, very close to me, as close as he is to my heart, while some songs do remind me of my past, the past that made me who i am today. All those journey into love and life, makes me a better person. I still stumble to the ugly past, but i am trying hard to not get carried away. Love that i have is pure. I love this man, and only he can makes me happy. i dont regret my past, but i dont think i will go back and do it again too. its that phase in life, that growing phase. Mumford and sons just bring me back those memories. Listening to it is like a long walk down memory lanes.

i guess that's the reason why i feel so connected to the album. Not forgetting the beautiful sound of the song itself. i am a hopeless romantic, but the more i listen to the album, the more i want umpy to come home fast. He could possibly be the best thing since sliced bread for me. I have people telling all sort of things, but its only been few months, not even years. i can wait, and i will wait. Plus, i am currently enjoying my single life. I have good company around me. These people make me happy. They know who they are.

As for now, i will wake up everyday, hoping that time will pass by fast, and waiting for that day to come when i will be able to say "umpy, stop picking your nose!" or even "umpy, shut the FART up!". I miss that boy, God willing, he'll come back soon enough to keep my cold night warm, and most importantly, to fill in that empty space in my life.

Nothings sad and pathetic about waiting. Its that part of life. Look at them people, they're happy! Life is too short to be sad. Stay positive!

-lady-