Isnt it weird?

Ive been living in England for almost 4years now, but the only place ive been to in England is Liverpool and Bicester Village. Well London is out of question because i am currently based in London.

But here's the thing, ive been in England long enough and surely ive been to all nice places and countrysides in England right? WRONG! This is where i made my point. If u havent notice, u will most unlikely go to places that tourists will go even if ure a foreigner, if u lived in that country. Well darling, dont mind me if u actually do tour the whole England when ure here. I am an alien then.

Well, then again. It doesnt just happen to me here. Even when i am back at home, dude i can count those times i went up to Genting or eat some nice foods at Jonker Walk or all those nice sightseeing places in Malaysia. Why? I honestly have no idea whatsoeva.

So, ive made a plan. Since an oversea trip is cancel this time around, im gonna bring my family to Bath, Cambridge, Stonehenge and other beautiful places in England. Think i need to do that myself too. Ive heard nice stories and seen beautiful pictures of these places. So it cant be that bad, and i honestly think it will be an awesome trip. Until i do, im just gonna share them pictures ive found on the internet, instead of mine.

Cambridge

Stonehenge

Bath

But still, isnt it weird? If no one tells me about these nice waterfall or hot spring in suburban area of Selangor, i will never know about those places, let alone to go there. So maybe its me yeah? Ha ha. I am the weirdo then? ok, maybe i am! laters people..

-lady-

Ghost and GAY

I am not getting any younger, hence the limited fun time i have at the moment...or not!! Fine, it may looks like i am not ready to hang my dancing shoes and partying dresses just yet, but the time will come. So i dont need any haters or prejudice people to come and judge me based on what they see and not what they know. So shut it and bitch about it elsewhere.

As much as the limited fun time im talking about at the beginning of the post, i am pretty sure we all know, that we all have our own limited time borrowed to us here in the world. So, might as well i keep that to myself, as obviously i am in no place to talk about something so deep and serious like that. When the times come, i will definitely share it with you lot.

Ive been out and let loose with my dearest friends over the past few weeks. No point dragging about it, as i believe these pictures tell the whole story by itself.

Those fun nights include halloween day and a visit to GAY for the risks and johnny (ok, its actually for charlie). It was fun, and trying to keep up with the young ones is not easy. Ha ha. But, it was fun time, and everybody needs that once in a while, are we all not?

sani /me

the girls and i

fun company

keker and i

love her

take "three" to tango

we are charlie's fan (charlie! charlie!)

....and crazy!

jo

zaty

we love charlie...right??

So there u go. To those who only knows to judge and complaint, u should try it urself. I am not saying do it my way, but go out, have fun, see the world. U got nothing to lose, but 5mins of relaxation will do u good. Enjoy life people. We all deserved it.

-lady-

Que sera sera

When i was younger, i honestly dont have this big ambitions like some people do..i really live my life as a kid..i mean, i go to school..get a really good UPSR results..

Later when i went into secondary school, life start to change, but not my ambitions, which i still so much is clueless about what im gonna do when i grow older. Life is more challenging. Its fun fun fun. Skipping schools, skipping classes, skipping tuitions. I am not a bright student, neither am i a bookworm. Hence the average results for both PMR and SPM.

Then its decision time, when i manage to get myself into the uni. I wanted to be a photographer, told papa that. But the respond was not good. He said its not a secured career. Then he told me to do journalism, cause i talked a lot. Yet, nothing came out of both initial so-called ambitions.

Suddenly, i saw myself applying for accounting course, which was way out of the initial plan. 10years down line, everything is history. Here i am, an accouting masters degree graduate, and in a race to complete my ACCA exams. Its kinda my ultimate dream at the moment to complete my ACCA, and as i was saying before, im not a smartie and definitely not a geek. So, its a very tough journey, but i am pretty sure im gonna get there.

Today, my initial plan on becoming a photographer, becomes a hobby. I am not a good photographer, no skills, no good camera but an iphone4. Thats all i need. It really gives me such a dear pleasure knowing people do appreciate my work on instagram, although its only few of them. It really is a good app for a secret dreamer and believer like me.

outside the window

in front of the office

Wood Green during the evening

Life is just too short to waste it. I admit i have millions of plans in head, but by doing it bit by bit, its the least that i can do to satisfy myself.

"Que sera sera, whatever will be will be"

-lady-

blabbing

i miss blogging! i really do. but i got really caught in the moment. works are piling up. exams are drawing near by day. umpy is leaving real soon. its like everything comes down on me at the same time. i am lucky enough to be able to breath over the weekend though.

well, i had some fun weekends, but aint got no time to write about it. I'm thinking of compiling everything and put it all in one blog.....after the exams. at this very moment, food is not ready, nothing on the telly, just got back from work, and so i reckon why not update my blog. and so i did.

just now, when i was on the bus on my way back home, a drunken man hop on the bus. its fair to say hes absolutely lost it. its also fair to say, the alcohol definitely has taken a toll on him. he talked to himself, he repeatedly lick his fingers and clean his shoes, i mean how can u clean your shoes with your fingers, a very dirty ones, and then licked it again and then clean it, licked it and clean it, licked it and clean it...ok, u probably got the idea by now. he was so drunk he smoke in the bus, and start asking people for another sports bar. i dont think he meant any harm, but with a drunken man, u never know! it got me thinking, why are we actually scared of drunken people? well i dont know about u, but for me, its terrifying really!

work is piling up, i dont even have time to study today. tried to study every night, but i fall alseep like every 5minutes, that at some point i feel like ive been sleeping for only few hours. cause what i did was fall asleep, wake up, study, fall asleep, wake up, study and finally settle down at 3am, every single day! i think i'm getting old, i cant do it anymore. working and studying, waking up early, go to work. this shud be able to motivate me to study harder so that i'll pass it this time around.....yes??

life is not easy, but how the hell does people with disabilities are more successful than i am? life most possibly is waaaaaay harder for them right? i dont really complaint as much, although everyday its gotta be the same "i am tired!" coming out from my mouth. man this guy i saw just now on the telly, he has no leg, and he's so successful..he's a multimillionaire. envy! always when things like this come up, its always that thought "hmm, what should i do to be successful?". being an employee for the rest of yourself will not make u rich sadly. hard life aint it? working ur ass off, and still skint like fuck! the answer is simple, the more u earn, the more u spent! i am not getting younger, so i need to think of a way to be self-employed and kaaaaa-ching..be rich!! DREAM ON!!

damn, i need food! i am hungry, and i always tell myself "that's why ure fat, because ure hungry all the time, and u eat all the time!" but i love food too much to not eat it and enjoy it rather than eat some of it, and then play with it until everyone's done! ok, i am starving. need to check the food now. have a good weekends u lot. cheerios!


-lady-

this is the life

today i literally decided to write another blog. this time its about what ive talked about in my last blog, about life i.e. things happening around me, people around me etc.

i swear i am not being envious or jealous of any of your life. i just literally wish it happened to me too, but this is the life. like what they always say "someone gotta do the dirty job ay?" well in this case, its me! see, if everyone else is famous, if everyone else is rich or if everyone else is smart, then who wanna be lame, who wanna be poor or who wanna be dumb? but then again, i am not saying i wanna be any of the latter, yet someone needs to be that right? i am very average! VERY AVERAGE! i aint got no big house, aint got no big brain, aint got no big zero's on my monthly paycheck either. but, i would love to have that one day. i'll get there myself. insyaAllah i will! but hey, i am not the only one who have that in mind. everyone else is (u can stop mumbling now, and start making it work).

undoubtedly, there is some people who loves to be over the top. tell the whole world that they're better than everyone else. cmon, no one's an idiot really! if i say i put a picta of myself on facebook or twitter or instagram just for me to see it, than that's the blackest white lies ive ever heard! and because of that,why dont u just pull the fucking trigger now? dhuh, its obviously for people to see. its for me to share. but what i don't understand is, people who post their picta, but its NOT THEM really! dont get me wrong, no one human being in the world are the same, not even the twins! but my point is, pictures never lie..but we human being, we do. we lie, while pictures never lie, we made them.

and then, people who bullshit about their life, worst, about their pathetic life! honestly? ure the freakiest joke ive ever met..like EVER! why would u tell people about how asshole ur husband can be? why would u tell people about how misery ur life is? why would u tell people about other people's slack? why would u share such a secret, very private and confidential issue with your so-called friend? imagine u have 1000 friends, wowza! but who the hell are u kidding? only 1% of those 1000 "friends", are your friends! do u seriously think they'll feel sorry for u? well THINK AGAIN! nowadays, no one cares. really, NO ONE, especially when ure a NO ONE! so keep it to urself, or share it in private with your friends. not some strangers whom u added just to show the world how famous u are, when its the same person who keep commenting and posting on ur wall! but hey, that's just a sincere suggestion, but if u like being the center of attention (a JOKE that is), help yourself! people love free show :)

and then, people who posted something to get noticed, but it is literally over the top, and they tried too very hard that it kinda obvious, till the extent that u just smile and people beside u would think ure crazy! i mean like cmon dude, the world does not revolve around u. open ur eyes! ure supposed to be smarter than me, well i guess a book smart will always be a book smart (kinda means u stay too much in the library that ur life get suck by the wall and the silent-less around u). so stop being a wannabe. just relax, and enjoy life!

well, i can go on and on and on about this forever. but think i made my point tonite, and i honestly think no matter how dumb u r, u cannot possibly be that dumb that not understand fucko. u know, i keep telling myself to not judge people, but its one the most hated gift a human being could ever asked for, to be so fucking JUDGMENTAL! like look at urself, u aint better, or look at urself, shes probably all that bla bla bla. but oh well, after all we are all the same. im gonna signoff now. should be studying, and will be studying! u lot have a lovely lovely weekend! remember, no one is better than u, but then again God doesn't create the world just to urself. it always best to stay firm on the ground, because in that case u wont fall. u might stumble, but it aint gonna hurt as much as falling! nitey

-lady-

so where are we?

well oh well. wow i miss blogging, although no one's reading. i love writing, although i know i am not as good! i'll try to make it interesting, but what's the point? i ain't doing no fashion blog, i ain't doing no trying to be cool, i ain't writing no words of wisdom..all i'm writing about is myself which is none of the above. boohoo!

so, myself! last week was all quiet. works OK (it literally means sucks!), study OK (it literally means, i am working on it), love's great (really, it means GREAT) and social life was pretty quiet! had a few too little. went out with Zaty last Friday, out to Russell Square for Bloomsbury Festival. Lighting the lantern they say. It was beautiful. Its the kinda festival that i would enjoy going to. Why? Because not much of a crowd. Haaa! Plus, always nice catching up with Zaty.

just got back from work

the lantern

English 'wayang kulit' =)

its really pretty

lovely design

Then came Sunday, it turned upside down. We lost 6-1 to our noisy neighbor. Its heartbreaking, but baby, we'll bounce back. Because that's always the spirit of a champion! yes we will! its always slow start at the beginning of the season, like it always had. But, we'll sort ourselves out soon. pretty soon!

But really, life is pretty slow at the moment. Working, working, studying, studying, enjoying life then back to working, working then studying, studying! You know what, there's loads to talk about, about people around me, about things happening around me, but nothing of it has me in it! so, every time when i start blogging, i always plan to write about it, but nothing is more interesting for me than myself. hey, lets face it! no one cares about u, unless if u have something. but unlike u, i dont care about u even if u have everything that i don't. because, nothing's more than fun, than living the life God gives me. For now, i am going for a win, and win only! i wanna make my parents proud of me, i wanna be the best person i could ever be. so, i'm gonna get back to it now, by first watching Celebrity Juice. ha ha. have a good night!

-lady-

one week later

haven't been posting anything for the past week or so. but oh well, its not like i have followers or something like that right? and so, what did i miss? not much right? so are u! this week was thoroughly decent. nothing much really. went out last Saturday with bunch of beautiful people. the place is called Heaven. i finally manage to see whats this fuss all about, Heaven the most so-called happening gay club in London..or so they say! the crowd was very interesting, but honestly. songs played in there, were not my cup of tea. hence, i would probably not go there again. unless if i were forced to follow the majority. but quite honestly, i do understand why gay people go there though.

Me / Madey

Me / Zaty

Me and the boys

Zaty and the boys

it takes three to have fun

thanks guys!

so that was a week ago. it was fun fun fun! and then this week, catching up session with zaty on Friday night, and gossiping session with Beata and Wiola on Saturday. It was really quiet this week, and i am loving it. Last 2 weeks, back to back were pretty 'out there'.

Went for a movie today though. Real Steel was quite amazing. But its not as good as Warriors in my opinion. Warriors pure class. Awesome fighting scenes. A heart-felt movie. It definitely moves me. In fact, ive seen too many fight scenes lately. On and off screen. Well, on the way back home, we saw a fight. Some boys with no balls, take on a man on his own! I hate these wannabes. Bullies, wannabes! The biggest losers are these boys. Left theirs 'balls' at home, and only manage to threw a punch when they're in a group, and not when they're one on one!

Got home, watched x factor (sophie looks stunning!), and then waiting for MOTD and TOWIE. and thats how my i spent my weekends. Its alrite though. Hope yours is just as good. and then, there's Monday. I'll be all alone in the office. No more Rachel. Fingers crossed i'll be fine. I know i will. I hope i will. Have a productive week people! it will paid off soon. i believe it will. so, get out there, and kick some ass. or not! haaa..take care now. ta

-lady-