Sunday 25 March 2012

when you're 30

i choose:



1. to stay at home on a Saturday night


2. to stay in than going out


3. to save more and spend less money


4. to save money for a house than to save money for a handbag


5. to watch light programme than a hardcore ones


6. to observe before i speak than to speak before i observe


7. to go home early if i were to go out at night


8. to reserve more than to open up


9. to grow old slowly than to act my age


10. to plan for both present and future, than to only live in the present


i contemplate:



1. to go out or to stay in


2. to start put on a make up or to remain au naturel


3. to buy high heels or to wear only pump shoes


4. to get into an argument or to let it passed


5. to sleep late or to stay up a little bit longer





i am glad that i lived my life the way i did, and that i continue to live it the way it is.

Choose is an option, contemplating only makes it easier!

-lady-

Friday 16 March 2012

dream a little dream

at the age of 30, ive learnt not to listen to other people but myself. i only listen to myself and i only trust my instict. every now and then, i believe the only people who should have your best interest at heart are those who wants to see you succeed, and not those who wants to bring you down, and that unfortunately includes your friend. dont get me wrong. you can have hundreds and thousands of friends, but at the end of the day, those who really supports you, are those who matters the most. i dont regret being friends with whom are not, but at least i know i can never share my dreams with them and that i can never trust them to be there for me, not even at the very least.

these people only see themselves as me, me, me and me! nothing associates them but themselves. its ok really, at least they say they have friends. i am still their friends nonetheless, but not to the extent of sharing my view in life and expecting them to understand and support me when i need that the most. i have always been humble to myself and to others. i will not let people down by saying they cant do that or they will not get there, but theres a difference between saying it and achieving it. its called DREAM!

everyone can say they want a nice house, a big fat bank account, as nice car, but not many people say i will do whatever it takes to get myself a nice house, a big fat bank account and a nice car. i come to notice that as i am little bit more than quarter of a century, there are things that i dream about when i was younger, and that i never really got that chance to live it. but now, i just feel that its a right time to do so. its a right time to be on the driving seat, shift the gear and take
control of what i want in life. at the moment, although i am blessed with what i have, but like u, i am a normal human being, hence i will never get enough of what i have. and so the dreams keep linger on, until one day when i wake up, i will need to pinch myself and tell myself that its definitely not a dream anymore.

when that happens, i will look back, and think about this very blog i post, i will think about those people who try to push me down, i will think about people who say i will never make it, and i will think about people who dont believe in me, and i will say THANK YOU, for giving me that much needed hard slap on the face. but for now, you are just like any other person that i passed by on the street. the only difference is that, those people are strangers and you are supposed to be my friend.

i will make it there one day, you just watch. i wish u well. after all, the world is borrowed and i hold no grudge!


smile

-lady-







Monday 5 March 2012

Who are you?

Have u ever feel like u have lost urself and got no where to go or have no one to turn to? Well if u do, its because ure not looking. Urself is always where u should go and whom u shud turn to. I know last time i said, dont let go of love and choose success instead, and im sticking to what i said. But then again, maybe i did not said dont give up on achieving both because that is how u be and treat urself. Dont ever let other people tell u, u cant do it, and dont ever let other people tell u to do it.

I am living alone, in this big city with only myself to trust and to rely on. All I need is someone to guide me, and be there for me, to catch me when im fall, to cheer for me when im winning. I dont need someone to tell me what to do or where to go. I also dont need to tell people what im gonna do and where im gonna go. Sometimes, people get it wrong. In my opinion, they do. I can understand the frustration and the determination towards whatever that is, but what i dont understand is the need to tell the world about it. Who you are is about trying to find yourself. Trying to find yourself is easy, by not looking at other people.

There is only one ME in the world. I hope i am being the best ME i could ever asked for. I admit, sometimes i have that thought too. That thought where i think i might want to be this, but then again maybe i dont. But thats life. Its trial and error. For as long as u dont look around, trying to find another Lady Gaga or Lady Diana, u will be just fine. I dont even glance at those who dont get me, and those who doesnt wanna be my friend. I let them not understand me, because if they do, they might try to be me too. But if u are around people who try too hard to be themselves, u might get lost. U might have a second thought about yourself. I never have that second thought about myself. So i am ugly, and then what? Maybe i cant buy that expensive bag, so what?

Because being yourself is so easy, u tend to get lost. Then theres people around u who are trying to be others, and then, u just lost u. U cant afford to buy an expensive bag, because they have money, and u dont! U cant afford to be pretty, because u were born that way. I take it as it is. Who u r is how u potray urself. Who u r is how u bring urself. Who u r is how u be urself. Dont take a step back. Move on and find that path. Because God loves every single one of His creations. He knows whats good for u, thats why He gives u what ure having at the moment. Find urself and be that one unique creation that He created with love. Honour urself, because if its not u, who else will?

-lady-