Pablo & Bruno

Dear Pablo & Bruno,

It was nice meeting you the other day. Never thought it will develop into such a strong connection. Definitely not in terms of sexuality, as i am still straight last time i checked, but i feel like i made new friends that day. I am happy throughout the whole 3 days. When its time to go home from work, i am all excited because i know i gotta to see you two again.

Somehow i feel like you're waiting for me to come home, and get on with the night doing exciting stuff which is quite honestly watching you two. There are something about life for the past 3 days that makes me so happy, but i cant seem to find the answer but you two. Dont worry guys, i dont want your sympathy, neither do i want your attention. Being able to just sit there and watch you two is more than enough.

Its difficult to find genuine friends these days especially when you're so far away from home. Sometimes i dont even know whether i have one or not. Its always good to go back home knowing they're there, emotionally and physically. Umpy is not here. He's my bestfriend. My sister is not here. She's my bestfriend. Someone who genuinely care for you, know you in and out. Be there for you, and talk shit any time any day.

But oh well, life doesnt always treat you right. There are people who appreciate others because of their standards, there are people who wants to be with others because of their reputations, but me, all i want is a genuine friend! Someone who doesnt mind crazy things that i would like to do. Someone who i dont mind doing crazy things that they would like to do.

Oh look at that, time flies! Gotta start working now. I got bills to pay, food to eat and clothes to wear, aint born with a silver spoon in my mouth. You know, there are things in life that are not meant to be..in fact there are MANY things in life, that are not meant to be, so you either take it or you leave it, but be glad you have a choice.

Well, thanks for listening you two. Thanks Marco Berger. It was nice knowing you.

aint' we all are..

-lady-

Baby its cold outside..

Its white and its cold! Its snowing. This time, it stays for a good few days. I still remember my first snow. I am Asian, a Malaysian, so forgive my excitement over snow cause we only have monsoon 356days a year, 24/7. The first snow was the best experience ever. I was sick, both homesick and sickness sick. It was white all over. Then I called home, I told papa its snowing outside. I still remember every single word he told me "Don't go jumping outside in the snow, you're having a cold. Just stay in!", but boy did i listen...NOT! Ha ha. Sorry pops. First thing in the morning, woke up, put on a thick layer of clothes, jump into the snow. Well, not literally INTO the snow, but you got what i mean. It was fun fun fun!

Years passed by, then its snowing every year ever since. This year, I am alone. Umpy was always there all those years, listening to me went "Umpy! Umpy! Wake up! Wake up! Its snowing!". Well, I know he's not as excited as I am, as he's seen the snow his whole life, but he's excited for me. This year he's not around, but when we talked on the phone, he still asked "Is it snowing? It is all white? Are you excited?". Old lady like me got excited because of snow, not funny, I'm Asian! (stop being racist now! ha ha).

White backyard

White park

But like everything else, something good will always end, either on a high or low note. This year, paths are all readily gritted, snow is melting fast, not allowing it to froze and becoming ice. Well some paths with less people, still very slippery that i actually have to look down while walking. The thought of slipping is a nightmare!  Leave me bruises before. 

But baby..DAMN its FREEZING outside..

 

     

Love Zooey Deschanel 

-lady-

well I AM LISTENing..

so, here's the deal. its the LISTEN video that went viral i dont know when, but i finally watched it last night cause i dont wanna waste my money on the electric. it make sense cause i am watching it on my iPad, in the dark. so i save few pennies there. dont know why am i telling u this cause its not the point. ha ha.

i've watched like 2 mins out of that 5 mins or wteva mins the video is, cause i've seen enough. Like all of you, i too have my own takes on the issue:

1. You're a student, so be one! Just concentrate on studying, and when you're ready and fully prepared to take on the world, with concrete knowledge, and valid facts in your smart brain, the world will LISTEN. But until then, be a student. 

2. Just because you're a speaker, and you probably have more experience in life, doesnt makes it ok for you to bring the student down and brag about your qualifications. Well, thats why she's there on the first place, to get that qualification and perhaps brag it like you did if she wants to later in life. 

(Conclusion to both points is that both are just as arrogant as one another.)

3. Then i read comments posted on the video. Wow, there's so many meany bias comments from those not qualified, part qualified or fully qualified people in there. But distinctions between these are so wide that you can see everyone are taking sides, which for me is unfair. If you want to comment, be neutral. Based on my observations i.e. based on those commentators' name, most non-Malays will agree with the student, and most Malays will agree with the speaker, which in my opinion, both have strong and weak facts during the debate.

4. Everybody has their own opinion on things in life, but some prove the points, while others are just bullshit-ing! I am not here to say I am smart, so LISTEN to me, but when you want to say something, think! Or these days, people will say GOOGLE it first. Support your opinions, be strong about it, present a concrete facts.

I, for once, will not be standing there making a fool out of myself especially when i dont have anything to support my point. I was a student once, but with such "reputations", i dont think no one will ever takes whatever thought i have seriously, but i dont blame them. Ha ha. So i did what i was told to do as a STUDENT, to study and have fun.

I am not posting this blog to explain issues debated in the video, cause i aint got that much of a knowledge myself, but i am posting this because of such body language and the arrogance level between the two are just an embarrassment to the community. Plus, some idiotics who take sides really need some kicks in the ass, and a slap in the head..really hard ones!      

A wise man once told me this, 

"There will be discriminations in every country in any part of the world, but those discriminations which support locals and the indigenes are called Positive Discriminations".  

p/s: its snowing outside. Should i make a snow angel you reckon?

not mine this, but it will be something like this..

-lady-

Design for love syndrome

That day when you walked out that door

You made promises that I'll forever savor

Those words I will always honor

You said "I'll come back my darling mi amor"

Suddenly the night just seems longer

This feeling is a wee bit eager

But I promise I will be here

Waiting in this evil round sphere

So this is our epitome

You are my design for love syndrome

And for you I will built a dome

Until you come back to a place call home

so if you want me, you better come and find me..

-lady-

mirror mirror on the wall

Hi! So hows your resolution going? Don't worry, you've got one more week to go. Remember the survey I've told you about? 2 weeks maximum! Kidding =) i wish you all well, and success with your new year's resolution. 

There's one thing about me that I've never post in my blog. I shared everything, well when i say everything, i meant to say everything relevant. Like you, i have my own "skeleton" too. Hell let's forget about the silly skeleton. So, for the past few years, there's one thing that i enjoy doing, taking pictures of myself in front of the mirror when i play dress-ups. I've always enjoy dressing myself up, but i ain't no "fashionista". I just love experimenting with my clothes. I don't have much clothes really, so you can see that most of them clothes were recycle.

I'll buy more beanies soon

 I love my Suede shoes

 I love patterns

 On the right is my "boyfriend jeans"..Umpy's jeans! its HIS!

Colour blocking is fun too

I have been taking these pictures since i moved to my current house. This is my third year. The mirror has been my friend. I know I ain't no celebs, ain't got no pretty face, but its how i express my feeling. You see, i am an accountant, so i really don't dress up to work. I am confident in my own skin, in my own style. What's amazing is that, I have been taking pictures in front of the same mirror for 3 years running now. However, pictures above were pictures taken throughout 2012. These are only some of the pictures.

I don't have preferences. These are just me being myself. If you notice, i have the same background which is my petite little room, enough for me to get ready and face the world. I love how British dress up. They're more daring and eccentric, and they have their personal own style. These clothes don't cost me much. So you'll not see me wearing any Ferragamo shoes, or LV bag or Prada jacket in that matter. Plus, i cant afford it!

Play dress-ups make me happy. Its one among many reasons that makes me excited to go out. I am no fashion expert, but at least i am being me, and not trying to be someone else, and most importantly, i am not breaking my bank account just to look good. Well, might post another one year of dressing up next year..that's 365days from now =)

p/s: no "mirrors" were harm during the shooting =P

-lady-

Staying safe

With such horrid news that we've been getting these days, it feels like no where is safe. Just when you thought you're safe, came another news. Its like a never ending story. At times, i felt paranoid and scared for my own safety. The media keep feeding us public with such terrifying news, which is although hard, but thats harsh reality, as a reminder especially to us girls, women, ladies etc.

Few miles away from where i live, a woman being stabbed in an unprovoked attack. Like, how is that possible? Why would you want to attack someone for the sake of i dont know, nothing? The man even have bunch of other weird weapons in his bag. Fair enough, the woman was walking alone, in an empty road, past midnight, but if a girl needs to go out, then she needs to go out! She's a big girl. This happened, just few miles away from my place, which is a pretty scary thought i must say.

Months back, there was a girl walking out from her house, to the train station, being punched in another unprovoked attack, in a BROAD DAYLIGHT. That is proper sick! Like what the fuck is wrong with you dude? So today, you've decided to punched a girl in the face, just like that? The girl went KO on the first swing..KOed! First swing! Fucking sick!

The most brutal incident would be the India gang rape. I couldn't even imagine. Quite honestly, i couldn't even type it. No words can describe these helpless feelings. I am lost for words really! Nothing came out..

Everytime when i read such news, i just gotta keep on reminding myself, hoping that it sticks into my stubborn big head to remember these,

1. Stop playing with the phone while walking

2. Always be vigilant about my surroundings

3. Do not talk to "weird" people

4. Do not stare or pull loath faces to strangers

5. Do not try to be smart

6. Do not try to be strong

7. Once i'm off the bus, i'll run as fast as i can

8. Get house keys ready while i'm still on the bus, not while i'm walking

But its always safe to have a male companion to walk you home, when you're alone. I personally would love that, but i will never ask. Its like helping the girl with her bags when she has all bags in the world, with only 2 hands. You just dont choose who you wanna sent off, whether or not you wanna walk her home cause she's alone, which friends would you prefer to carry her bag for. You just do it because she's your friend. Please dont feel obligated, i swear dont! Well, NOT every man will do that unfortunately, and that's why its better to take care of yourself, than thinking that a male species can go no wrong. Hey, "female of the species is more deadly than the male"!.

 

you're right mate!

Everytime when i read these scary news, i sleep with big umbrella on top of my bed, double check my deadlock, cause its making me paranoid. I really run as fast as i can once i get off the bus if i got home late at night. 

Having exercise all these precautions, whats left is to leave it with Allah swt. He knows best. Pray and asked Him for all the safety in the world, for my family and i, every girl, every boy, men and women. InsyaAllah.

Just please ladies, STAY SAFE wherever you are.

-lady-

2013 - of muds and puke

Happy New Year 2013.

Nope, no resolution. Really no! Its same ol same ol strive hard shit whatnot. I am living reality. Scientifically proven that only "1 in 11 of us actually follow our resolutions, and 40% last for only 2 weeks". So why bother?  

So how did you celebrate? Do you have fun? Are still on your New Year's hangover? 

I sure did have fun. We went out to catch the glimpse of fireworks at Primrose Hill. It was raining the whole day. So the ground was pretty wet, but i didn't expect it to be that bad (feel like I was back at TITP). It was muddy all over. I actually wore my suede shoes (the fuck im thinking, God knows!), but we came prepared. Plastics, foods, drinks, water proof blanket, to sit and talk, eat and drink, while waiting for the clock to tick 12.

Somehow Keker picked a "perfect spot" according to Madir. It was all muddy, wet and obviously slippery. We sat at a slight downhill area, as the top hill was fully taken. There's a clear space in front of us, and it was horrible. Its the worst spot ever due to the condition of the ground. Yet, people kept passing in front of us, running, laughing, not knowing the "danger" awaits them while passing thru the area. Easily 2 or 3 went stumbling in front of us. Madir was laughing his ass off, like "fall, fall, fall!". That boy is a one meany bitch! Haha, but i love him! If someone fell off, its like watching a show. If they survived, he'll go all dissapointed. Haha.     

So the clock finally tick 12. We've witnessed the whole London beaming under those fireworks display. There were fireworks everywhere. You actually see the whole London like 360 degrees. It was beautiful. The view was breathtaking. Having to embrace the moment with friends that i love, its a perfect 10, for the celebration. Then its time to go home. It was the scariest moment of the night. So slippery, very muddy, people keep falling off. Its an intense moment. I actually appreciate the tarred road that night. Its like a bless having to finally step on the tarred road after such a horror muddy experience.   

So i missed the mud. Thank God for that. Then we walked back to the train station. It was ok full. I mean it was full, but not that congested. Its still fine by then. You can see some of them were just out for the fireworks, and cant wait to go home and call it a day. We got on the train. We're standing because the train is full. Ive notice a drunk man in front me. He kept his head down, and after sometimes he started blabbering to his friends, but only he himself understand shit hes talking about. Then he stopped talking, kept his head down again...and he fucking puked! No warning, no sorry, no nothing! I was standing in front of him! THE PRICK FUCKING PUKED IN FRONT OF ME, ON MY LEG, HIT SMALL PART OF MY JACKET. In split seconds, the seats in front of him were empty. Luckily the train stopped, and we moved to another carriage. It was fucking disgusting! But because he didnt eat i THINK, only alcohol came out from his mouth (was better than rice or pasta or wteva food..eeewww).  And because he didnt fucking eat, he shouldn't be drinking that much of alcohol, thinking he'll be fine. Proper idiot that!

So i got home, take off my leggings (thank God for the leggings, thank God its winter so i wore them leggings), and dumped it in the bin! Clean the itsy tiny bitsy spot on my jacket, and dry the shoes off before i clean it the next day.

So thats how my 01/01/13 went. Great..just GREAT!

=)

So, how you celebrate your new year?
I wish everyone a joyous 2013.
Cheers to an improved 2012..2013!

-lady-