suicidal..easy way out, or is it?

its an act of a selfish coward, who thinks of no one and nothing but him or herself only. worst is that, you're not just a coward, but also brave at the same time which confuses me! how brave of you to take your own life and yet not brave enough to face the world. all you have to do is walk with head held up high.

 

how selfish of you to only think about yourself thinking "if I die, everybody will be happy!". how pathetic is that? RIP those miserable souls, but for those who is courageous enough to hanged himself, or cut your wrist, or swallowed a bottle of painkillers, well get this, SCREW YOU! 

 

You have families who love you and friends who adore you. You also have a roof on top of your head, enough money to eat something good, a job that is not as good, but its enough, how the fuck is that miserable, I will never know!

 

With all these saying there is no other answer, there is no sense of belonging, it is pure laziness! You let yourself drift away, you let the demon inside you win, and its not even a losing battle. How dare you tell people that they don't understand how you feel? How dare you tell people that it is the only answer for you? How dare you make people believe that it is ok to say OK to suicidal? HOW DARE YOU! You have no right to think, as you OBVIOUSLY don't think when you decided that you'll commit suicide.

 

Family that you left, friends that you knew, other people that was part of your life although is not as important, you left them questions that they don't even know where to start. You are wrong to think that this is the only way that you can think of. You are wrong to think that its OK to commit suicide. You are wrong to think that life is not worth living.

 

You have no rights to let people who were once part of your life feel miserable because you've committed suicide. You have no rights to think that people don't care when you don't even care to ask. 

 

I am angry because how does one soul that someone knew little about and yet felt the pain of what you did to yourself. They don't have to feel sorry for you, but they do. They don't even have to think about you, but they do. Why would they think about you when you don't even think about yourself? You made them miserable, you made them feel like shit, and yet you dare thinking by committing suicide, things will all be OK, well news flash..YOU'RE WRONG!

 

I will CONDONE suicide. I will not agree that people don't understand how it feels like. I will not agree that there is no where to go but to die. No one tells you that life is easy. No one tells you that everything is within grasp. No one tells you that shit happen and sometimes, it won't go away. But everyone will tell you this, that there will be one point in your life, where you will feel like everything's against you, but they too will tell you that it will eventually be OK, because believe me it will.

 

Get help! Fight the demon inside you. No one says its gonna be easy. But take a look at yourself, you're perfectly fine! If you don't think you are, believe me there are millions more who are far worst than you. Look at your parent's face. Imagine how heartbroken will they be, your brothers and sisters. Look at your wife, your kids. Imagine how distraught they will be. Poor kids have no idea who their dad is. Poor woman is left widowed because you're scared to face the life that was given to you by God Almighty, and believe that you will at least try and die a peaceful die.

 

Talk to your friends. Talk to your loved ones. Go out and smell the air. Its beautiful out there. Anything can go wrong, but what is life without obstacles? What is victory without sweat and blood? What is sun without rain? If you're brave enough to commit suicide, you're sure brave enough to walk proud and face the evil world.  

 

Because one day, things will be OK. Believe me, and I promise, that it will all be OK!

 

there's always light at the end of the tunnel..

-lady-