Church visit

About a week ago, i went out with a friend. We were trying to kill some times because the restaurant that we were planning to go to will only opened in 30 minutes time. Few blocks away is a building that was used for concerts and stuff. But today, it was renovated and turn into a church. So i figure out, why not, cause i've never been in a church before. Well maybe once when i had to collect my graduation gown, but the church was transformed completely into a wardrobe full of graduation gowns, so that's different.

So we went in. We had a volunteer who works for the church showing us around. So i went into every possible room they have. Baptism room, wedding room and also the library. Its a new experience. Getting to know how does the church actually looks like, i know it sounds stupid (a church is a church), but its good to know. This friend of mine is an atheist. She told me that she doesnt believe in God, but wanted to believe in one, so she decided to go to church to find out.

So i asked her "why Christian, and why not Islam, like myself?" So she said she would like to know about Islam too, but the sad part is that, i dont even know how to explain it to her, in an attempt to make her understand why Islam is the best religion in the whole universe. It makes me think, how do we make people believe and understand that Islam is the best religion when as a Muslim, we dont even know how to tell them that. We make people believe that Islam is a terrorist religions, because of people like me, who failed miserably to explain to these non-Muslims that its just an ambush to make us Muslims look bad.

She even planned to go to the church again together one day, and i told her that i maybe look like i dont care, but i am a proud Muslim, that i was born a Muslim, and will die as a Muslim. Then i thought to myself "how many Muslims got lost along the way while trying to get into the right path, thinking that converting into another religion is the best option?" Its sad really to think that a Muslim actually convert into some other religions, believing it suits them better when they were born with the best religion in the whole universe.  

I am ashamed of myself, and to Him, Allah swt. The moment i step my feet into that church, every nanosecond beat of my heart knows that Islam is where i belong, and how i desperately wish she can see that too. Islam is beautiful. Its simple and yet so powerful. I pray that one day, Allah swt will guide me and her, so that i wont get carried away so far, and for a long time. I am a Muslim, and i practice them. Its just that sometimes, old habits never die. Everyday i pray that He will open my heart, and show me the way back to where i belong. InsyaAllah

شَرَعَ لَكُم مِّنَ الدِّينِ مَا وَصَّى بِهِ نُوحًا وَالَّذِي أَوْحَيْنَا إِلَيْكَ وَمَا وَصَّيْنَا بِهِ إِبْرَاهِيمَ وَمُوسَى وَعِيسَى أَنْ أَقِيمُوا الدِّينَ وَلَا تَتَفَرَّقُوا فِيهِ كَبُرَ عَلَى الْمُشْرِكِينَ مَا تَدْعُوهُمْ إِلَيْهِ اللَّهُ يَجْتَبِي إِلَيْهِ مَن يَشَاء وَيَهْدِي إِلَيْهِ مَن يُنِيبُ {13

(42:13) He has prescribed for you the religion which He enjoined upon Noah and which We revealed to you (O Muhammad), and which We enjoined upon Abraham and Moses and Jesus, commanding: “Establish this religion and do not split up regarding it.” What you are calling to is very hard upon those who associate others with Allah in His Divinity. Allah chooses for Himself whomsoever He pleases and guides to Himself whoever penitently turns to Him.

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